THE POINT

There should always be a point where there's absolutely nothing you can do about it. All you can do is be patient and allow it to surface all on its own. And this is where most people get into trouble. It's where I often get into trouble. You'll drive yourself crazy and you'll think too much and drink too much, and then you'll make the biggest mistake of all, which is involving other people. And you'll just drive them crazy too. All you're doing is wallowing around unnecessarily in the fear and confusion and self doubt. And worse, you risk the chance that when it finally does appear, you will no longer be in a position to see it, you'll be too distracted worrying about it, looking elsewhere for answers. But if you can teach yourself to avoid this, to actually enjoy it, to enjoy the magic and excitement of it, when it finally comes, it will always be perfect and as indisputable as the body at the morgue. The way I see it, the way I gage what I'm doing, if there isn't this point, if this moment doesn't come about, then I'm clearly onto the wrong thing.